As we all have seen the fruits of our labor diminish to nearly nothing.
Our governments deficit is growing as the days pass.
Huge corporations with greedy CEOs and money hungry oil companies are asking for bail outs?
What about the little men? Why should we raise our tax dollars to bail out those companies that are robbing us blind anyway?
Just a food for thought. I can see this first hand affecting my life. Gas prices fluctuating, prices of necessities sky rocketing. And worst of all the job market is scarce.
Here I am a graduating senior, sending out tons and tons of resumes but absolutely no bites.
I have had 3 interviews within the past 2 months and landed a job. Ideally this is not my dream job but it is good for me straight out of college. Commission based of course, which will motivate me to do well on my own time.
Hopefully our new President-elect Barack Obama will make the necessary changes to help us all out in the future. I'm worried not only for my own well-being but for my offspring. No social security or stable 401 K's in the future?
Let's face it! It could be worse. We could have Sexy Sarah as our next VP. What a joke that would have been. I'm glad the majority of Americans were on the same page. Not everyone has millions stacked away for their children to wipe with.
This is a serious situation and it will take time to tackle.
What has our beautiful country come to?
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Thursday, October 9, 2008
It will all get better in time.
There is this Leona Lewis song "Better in Time" that I've been listening to on REPEAT for the past 2 weeks. It really is therapeutic, MUSIC that is. Music,painting and some other extra curricular activities of choice that have been my life since I recently ended my 2 1/2 year relationship.
How do people just stop being in love? I don't get it. I thought that him and I were FOREVER, but love is blind. How could we have been forever when I was constantly the one pushing him to better himself? I obviously wasn't content with him, and if your in love aren't you supposed to love your partner for who they are? I was more worried about what he was doing rather than what I have/had going on. I ignored myself, but what I have learned through all this IS, that no matter what YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON YOU CAN COUNT ON.
We were/are night and day. Raised in two different towns, two completely different families, two completely different personalities but something made it happen. Just within the past 8 months, things just startled unraveling like a kitten with a ball of yarn. Snags here and there and perfectly untouched points in some instances.
I stuck around because I thought if I ignored our problems for long enough that they would go away. As of early December 2007, he went to the hospital with no insurance while we were on vacation, as of New Years 2008 his car blew up, February 2008 we had a personal loss between the two of us, March 2008 he lost his job, April 2008 he moved in with me here in NC to try and start over and make things better, June 2008 we both moved back to MD, August 2008 he FINALLY got a job. 5 months without a job?? REALLY? I was back from school for less than 2 weeks and got a BARTENDING JOB! Yea, I'm a girl but really, HOW HARD WAS HE TRYING?
I know that the market for jobs right now is horrible, but his constant strive for mediocrity had finally caught up to me. I am about to graduate college in a month and a half. He is waiting tables, not going to school, living on his buddies couch, no car and saving no money in the bank. His money goes to booze, paying bills, an occasional bag of green and video games(UGHHHH Don't even get me started on that!)
I thought about breaking up with him this summer constantly! I felt that if I broke up with him that he would hate me and I didn't want that. So I decided my coming back to ECU for my last semester would help us grow apart. And what do you know, IT DID!
How can I want something so bad, let it fall apart and now that it's gone be so upset about it?
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? The worst part about it all is now hearing my friends, our mutual friends and my family say that it is the right thing to do! WHAT THE HELL DO THEY KNOW?
Anyone who has been in a relationship knows that the two in the relationship are the only two people that REALLY KNOW what goes on.
This past weekend over Fall Break I went back to MD and we gave each other all of our stuff back. Clothes, sports jerseys (the one thing we did have in common was our love for sports), Cd's and other random things. I still have so much in my bedroom that I can look up and take a glance around and at least 6 things reminds me of him. He is and was my best friend, I know we still care about each other but all things must come to an end.
I am a firm believer that if things are meant to happen, they will happen!
This has been the hardest thing I've ever had to do but at the same time it has helped me grow withing myself. I'm back to designing and sketching clothing, painting and working on finding a career! It's ME time and I'm READY for that!
until next time...
How do people just stop being in love? I don't get it. I thought that him and I were FOREVER, but love is blind. How could we have been forever when I was constantly the one pushing him to better himself? I obviously wasn't content with him, and if your in love aren't you supposed to love your partner for who they are? I was more worried about what he was doing rather than what I have/had going on. I ignored myself, but what I have learned through all this IS, that no matter what YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON YOU CAN COUNT ON.
We were/are night and day. Raised in two different towns, two completely different families, two completely different personalities but something made it happen. Just within the past 8 months, things just startled unraveling like a kitten with a ball of yarn. Snags here and there and perfectly untouched points in some instances.
I stuck around because I thought if I ignored our problems for long enough that they would go away. As of early December 2007, he went to the hospital with no insurance while we were on vacation, as of New Years 2008 his car blew up, February 2008 we had a personal loss between the two of us, March 2008 he lost his job, April 2008 he moved in with me here in NC to try and start over and make things better, June 2008 we both moved back to MD, August 2008 he FINALLY got a job. 5 months without a job?? REALLY? I was back from school for less than 2 weeks and got a BARTENDING JOB! Yea, I'm a girl but really, HOW HARD WAS HE TRYING?
I know that the market for jobs right now is horrible, but his constant strive for mediocrity had finally caught up to me. I am about to graduate college in a month and a half. He is waiting tables, not going to school, living on his buddies couch, no car and saving no money in the bank. His money goes to booze, paying bills, an occasional bag of green and video games(UGHHHH Don't even get me started on that!)
I thought about breaking up with him this summer constantly! I felt that if I broke up with him that he would hate me and I didn't want that. So I decided my coming back to ECU for my last semester would help us grow apart. And what do you know, IT DID!
How can I want something so bad, let it fall apart and now that it's gone be so upset about it?
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? The worst part about it all is now hearing my friends, our mutual friends and my family say that it is the right thing to do! WHAT THE HELL DO THEY KNOW?
Anyone who has been in a relationship knows that the two in the relationship are the only two people that REALLY KNOW what goes on.
This past weekend over Fall Break I went back to MD and we gave each other all of our stuff back. Clothes, sports jerseys (the one thing we did have in common was our love for sports), Cd's and other random things. I still have so much in my bedroom that I can look up and take a glance around and at least 6 things reminds me of him. He is and was my best friend, I know we still care about each other but all things must come to an end.
I am a firm believer that if things are meant to happen, they will happen!
This has been the hardest thing I've ever had to do but at the same time it has helped me grow withing myself. I'm back to designing and sketching clothing, painting and working on finding a career! It's ME time and I'm READY for that!
until next time...
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